I'm also trying to cut back on my own dumbass sense of humor, so I understand your struggle all too well. At the same time, don't beat yourself up too badly. I doubt people mind you talking about your interests at length as much as you think they do. I know I don't tbh. I always enjoy hearing people talk about things they love, even if I don't have much to say in response due to my own lack of knowledge. It's just nice to hear about people's passions.
I wish you the best of luck on your continuing journey towards self improvement. One more thing, though. You're more than just "good to decent" at music. Don't sell yourself short like that.
MasterHand4444
Appreciate the vulnerability, Trit. I and many others will be cheering you on as you take this journey of self improvement. You got this dude!